Thanks to all the lovely people who said they respected me
You've really cheered me up! I don't think you all know how much it means to still be in people's thoughts at the moment!
You may or may not know, but I've been really ill again, and was in Ninewells for three weeks with cardiologists. It turns out I have this really rare condition causing me to faint--basically my pulse jumps up by 70-90 beats the second I stand up on a bad day, and it causes lots of other problems too (only 6 other people in Scotland have it! When I said rare, I meant rare! But if anyone's going to have a bizarre condition, who else would it be? A bizarre condition for a bizarre woman!) They sent me out of hospital in a wheelchair, with betablockers and told me there's no cure. I refuse to accept this and I'm now trying to see the only cardiologist in the country who specialises in fainting--she's in Newcastle so it's a bloody long way from here....but I'm determined to get my life back to what it was before all this happened.
I've had to leave St Andrews for now and come back home to Bristol to get better, which I'm not too happy about- I love St Andrews. At least I'll graduate in June though! I'm planning fo the future and trying to look forward to Oxford in the autumn- if I get funded, I'll be able to go and do a masters in Medieval English
I'm so glad we have the Sinner- it makes me feel part of St Andrews even though I'm this far away. You know I never used to like the Sinner--I remember when it used to just be called The Bitchboards, but I got into it two years ago in my third year, and I love the fact that we can share opinions and ideas and get blethering. I've been really impressed with the way the Sinner can make things happen, too...remember with the rent protests last year? It was largely through the Sinner that that moved off the ground.
I always thought that message boards were for geeks who didn't have a life...how wrong I was. I've met some awesome people thrugh the Sinner, and I'm so glad that I ventured onto these boards.
It's not easy being at home-I feel really cut off, as St Andrews has been my life blood for the past five years.
I miss it terribly. It's a fabulous place with awesome people. But knowing that some of those awesome people who I've met and spoken to during my time there still think about me even though I'm not about makes me feel that I do matter.
In terms of who I respect on the Sinner, it would have to be, first and foremost, Manic23 (who is now my beloved academic son!) followed very closely by Harmless Loony, Midget, Prophet Ten and Steveo. There are loads of others whose names I can't think of now, my head's too fuzzy today!
But in short (sorry, I really am SO lightheaded, I'm sure I've typed a big load of bollocks just now, but then some might say, What's new?!) I just wanted to say THANKS and you lot have really cheered me up:-)