by David Bean on Wed Mar 28, 2007 10:04 pm
Well, Nigel, I'll take your post at face value and answer your question.
When I post to my journal, what I post is almost entirely dependent on my mood at the time - if it wasn't, it wouldn't be authentic, and I wouldn't be comfortable with that. Generally, though, I'll only decide to post if I'm in a good mood, because if I'm not I'll probably not be able to face doing so. Which should go some way to explaining the optimistic tone of my recent posts - go back a little further and you'll find it's not all sweetness and light (not that I'm seriously inviting further discussion here of my private life).
However, I was thinking about this earlier today, and, yes, I do think that I tend to take a more optimistic view of the world than a lot of people, and as far as I'm concerned that's because I just prefer to dwell on the ppositive rather than the negative. If, say, on the one hand I was annoyed at the Government's latest attempts to hijack our civil liberties, but on the other hand my job was going well, I'd prefer to contemplate the latter because it would make me happier for more of the time, which means I'd be more inclined to post to my Livejournal about it. Alternatively, whenever I am ruminating on the seemingly unstoppable onward march of the nanny state or what have you, I'm usually too depressed to want to post about it. Some people do the opposite, and draw their energy from whatever happens to annoy them - I just don't, and I don't think there's anything wrong with that.
But again taking your post at face value, your original posts do to feel to me to be insulting, and as I'm the object of it I think I'd probably be in a fair position to judge that. For a start the headline, 'Fanboy', is pejorative, and the suggestions you go on to make about claims I'm supposed to have made about my role in the recent elections/my job/my claims to public speaking prowess are not, at least out of context, supported by anything I've actually said, and do not in any case represent the way that I actually feel. Enough people have said enough frankly rather nasty things about me in the past, and my journal is that little part of the internet where I get to tell my side of the story. The truth, from my point of view and which I've always tried to put across there, is that whilst I've made as many mistakes as anyone else may have, my ultimate aim has only ever been for the good of the people I've worked and cared for, and I'd like to think that any ill that I've done, or any good that I've failed to do, will in the grand scheme of things have been outweighed by a considerable margin by the good I've done. That's what I care about, and that's why I'm hurt by this sort of attack.
Sweet: the title of my journal is a reference to a fan fiction/roleplaying 'game' I used to participate in many years ago: it's the name of a character I used to play, which became the name I generally use online. I registered on the Sinner under my own name because I decided fairly early on that I didn't want to be the kind of person who said things on here that I wasn't prepared to put my name to, but if I'd chosen a 'handle' in the traditional sense, it would have been Lord Rosemount.
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Psalm 91:7
Psalm 91:7